Current mood:

exhausted

Superwoman is Tired

There are days that I long for the simplicity of the 1950s.  Womankind has fought for decades for equality and power, and now we have what I call the "Superwoman" complex.  As said modern day Superwoman, I am the President and CEO of a very complex organization called my life.  Unfortunately, said Superwoman CEO is getting more tired everyday, and the stock options in my life company are quickly losing value.

Enough with the shitty metaphors, I suppose. This is by no means a drunk post; it is a post written in shear exhaustion.  I spend my days running at top speed, working a complex and high demanding job that requires my brain to be operating at 100% all the time.  Then, in every spare moment I'm not working, I'm working a high demanding job at home - cleaning the house, running the errands, paying all the bills, making all the decisions, everything.  I think back to the 1950s, when I wouldn't be working at all. My sole job would be house and child care. I wouldn't be responsible for making all the "life" decisions (What car should we buy? Should we refinance the mortgage? Are all the bills paid on time? Who should we call to fix the broken dryer?)  In the 1950s, my husband would kindly pat me on the head and say, "Don't you worry your little head about things like that, sweetie." And I wouldn't.

Now, anyone who knows me realizes that kind of existence would surely drive me mad, so my longing for the simplicity of the idealistic 1950s is simply a desire for rest and peace right now at this moment in time.  I get inspired when I find myself surrounded by strong powerful Superwomen who are all the CEOs of their family's lives, yet I get frustrated when I see these Superwomen tied to men who's most complex decision they will make all day is what kind of sword to purchase for their WoW character. Decades of fighting for equality, and THIS is what we get?